I had to see my PCP for a transitional appointment from my hospitalization last month. Before even going back to the examining room I'm put on the dreaded scale. If I thought the scale at my appointment on Friday was bad, this was horrible! I realize that for both appointments I had eaten and was dressed, but for the Monday appointment I weighed over 10 lbs more than I did yesterday morning at home. My home scale is a digital one from amazon and I know that they are sometimes less accurate than the ones at most doc's offices, but 10 lbs? TEN POUNDS??? That's just crazy - I was not wearing 10 lbs worth of clothing, although I did have pasta for dinner an hour or so before Monday's weigh-in. I do step on it enough times until it reads the same number twice. Yesterday it took 3 attempts, but two of them were the same, so that's the number I went with.
Last night I saw the therapist - the one covering while mine is out on medical leave... the one who is an expert on food issues. Yeah, her. Well, I alluded to my body issues, but it wasn't the main focus of what I was saying, so she didn't ask me to expand on it. I didn't bring it up again.
I'm scheduled to go away in the Fall. Away to a place which requires a lot of walking - Disney World. Last time I was there was this past December and the arthritis in my back was acting up in a way that I was in so much pain. In fact, it's still really bothering me. I know that losing weight will at least help with that pain. I'm just not sure I'm ready to give up my junk food. I realize that I don't have to give it up - that it's not about dieting, but I won't be able to eat in the way I am now. Do I take advantage of her "area of focus" in "eating disorders" (as it says on the practice's website) or do I wait until my therapist comes back (where the website says he has "extensive expertise" in treating "food addiction") and work on it when I'm ready?